I’m in a pretty weird mood and I have been the last couple days - a lot has been happening but at the same time I still feel like I’m not going anywhere. I don’t know if that make sense but for some reason I’ve always thought there’s more out there. Mum thinks I expect too much out of life. I don’t know if that’s possible.
I just bought a car. Its a 2003 Lancer, its white with pink neons under it and a real decent sound system, for 6500. I really, really like it. Its my first car and sometimes all I want to do is just go sit in it and go for a really long drive.
Unfortunately I have to wait until August before I get my license. Its something like 78 days and I just know they’re going to be really painful.
I’m on a study break at the moment from Uni, next couple weeks I have exams and then I’m on holidays for about 4 weeks. I need holidays. Being smart, to save money. But otherwise just so I feel like I have spare time again, catch up with people I haven’t seen in a while.. chill out. I guess. I can’t decide if I like Uni. It doesn’t feel like a big part of my life at all, I just kind of fit in the bare minimal, what I have to do.
Me and Luke are kind of going through a rough patch. He said last night he doesn’t know if he can see it anymore. Us making it through the long run. I was looking at him today and I hate admitting it but I was just thinking how much we see things differently, care about different things, want different things. We’re so different. Maybe even too different. He brings out a really good side of me. Like, I’m much more stablh and a lot more in control most of the time, he’s been keeping me on the rails. But at the same time I have to wonder if that’s enough. I know its just a patch we’re going through. I’ve been really frustrated because I feel like he’s stealing my thunder, because I have this new car and I’m really excited but all everyone cares or talks about is his stupid new WRX he happened to get on the same day as me. I want so badly to be supportive. Because I know what a big thing this is for him and I’m supposed to selflessly care, but I’m upset at the same time. Its a FIRST thing for me, a big day, you don’t really get many of them and I’ve already had most of mine and it’s like he made it less about me and I can never buy my first car again. I tried explaining this to him and he just said it was really immature.
Lately I’ve felt really suffocated and stuck and I just want to run away and start again sometimes. Get my car and some clothes and drive to Melbourne and just start again.I’ve planned my life so much that there is no room for any change and I just want to be out of Perth already. So badly.
It never slows down, time. I never ever have enough of it. Its already like halfway through the year and I can’t even think of anything hugely significant or whatever that I’ve really done.. okay maybe buy a car. But like, there’s been no big changes I’m in this rut and I just want to be out there and free and ugh. I need money. -_-
So yeah, at the moment looking in my life would look kind of perfect. But its really not. and yeah. idk. I don’t think I’ll ever be happy with what I have.
casually crying for no reason and feeling weird empty chest pains waaaaah.
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Don’t stop chasing.
I think that one of the biggest reason why relationships do not work out in the long run is because at one point, one side (or both) stops trying. Before one claims another person as their significant other, they would do anything to make that person happy. They would chase, they would flirt, they would be charming. They would send daily morning and goodnight texts every time you wake up or go to sleep. They would write corny messages and pick up lines just to make sure that there is a smile upon your face. But once they claim you as theirs, all of those things eventually stop. The 5 page texts slowly turn into 1. The constant calls turn into not calling at all. And the lovely endearments turn into daily arguments. In order for a relationship to work, don’t ever stop chasing. Just because the person you want is now consider “yours”, it does not mean they deserve anything less than the time when you’re trying to win them over.
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Follow HIM he is looking for a tumblr girlfriend and boyfriend
He wants to be nice to them and make them famous
He is choosing out of only new followers
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